Mediocre Holidays!

Eh :I
Not saying my Christmas was bad, no, I got to see grandma and bro and got great gifts but I'm just too tired of everything to enjoy the hollidays to their fullest. Christmas usually feels very special but this year it was... like the average birthday party in my family? Like yey we got cake and new material items but on the other hand who cares about someone getting old. Wish I could remember what it's like to feel the ecstatic joy I used to have during holidays, now everything just comes and goes without leaving much of a mark on me. Meh, just a part of getting older and that sucks.

No anticipation for next year at all. 2015 was a disappointment. A lot of great things happened, of course, but the overall feel isn't anything all that good.
If we pretended that horoscopes are always 100% right, then 2015 should've been the best year of my life and if this is as good as it gets then...well fuck, if everything afterwards will only get progressively worse then might as well jump out of the window, existential thoughts all over again, why even try. Maybe 2090 will be the best year of my life _{(I MIGHT FINALLY DIE THEN HUEHUE BLACK HUMOR HUE)}

Hope ya'll are in a better mood these holidays than me! xD Again, I'm not sad, just generally disappointed at the reality of life. (I don't know how to write that down without it sounding depressive as hell :I I suck at words.)